Just getting ready for supper, going to have some leftover pasta from last night, yum. I felt like this was a good day, I am feeling good about myself and do not have a reason to binge on anything. I might have some apple pie for desert but it will be guilt free because I have been good all week and budgeted some extra points for today so I will enjoy!
Other than that, feeling slightly stressed about school, bit project due tomorrow, but stress is not a reason to binge or overeat.
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Hey 7 days!!! Congrats! That is amazing, I knew you could do it! Good luck with your project today too.
ReplyDeleteI am on day 2 today. Yesterday was a pretty good day but it's always hard to get back on track after a few days of eating crap. Plus I still have PMS and feel kind of yucky from that. At least I've managed to work out most days.
I've done some reading about PMS and found out I also have PMDD (premenstrual dismorphic disorder) which is when you have symptoms of PMS severe enough to disrupt your life for the duration. I am at my wit's end trying to figure out what I can do to fix it, I have tried all kinds of herbal treatments over the years and nothing works; I found another thing to try though, actually two: borage oil and natural progesterone cream. Borage oil is supposed to help with bloating and sore boobs, and I'm hoping it might help with the appetite changes as well. Progesterone cream is supposed to help by balancing out the hormones responsible for all the symptoms of PMS/PMDD. So I'm going to try them both. Really, it's a last resort I guess. It takes about 3 cycles to see a difference so I must be patient. I REALLY don't want to take birth control pills like the dr suggests, but honestly if this doesn't work, I may even consider it, I am that desperate. I don't like taking prescriptions and chemical medications at all, I would much rather find something natural and non-toxic for things. Oh well...see how it goes.
Yep, I did start the points program but then all my PMS junk food screwed it up, but I am doing it and since I haven't had enough days of "normal" (non-binge) eating, it's too soon to tell if it works for me. I really like the idea though. I think it will help keep me on track.
So yeah...the last few days sucked, to say the least. One day I skipped breaky and another day I had only an apple until 4 pm and then munched out on junk food...sigh...not good! Why is it so HARD for me to eat normal small meals and enough of them and at the right times? Sometimes I wonder, what is wrong with me? Oh well...today is another day, and I did not binge or eat junk yesterday :) I can do this. I am NOT giving in to the ED, I am stronger than it.
Oh and by the way, I'm thinking about starting a blog myself. I'm not sure if I want to, and I'm not sure what it will be about, but most likely my struggles with weight and the ED and stuff, among other things.
hey sorry to make this soooo LONG lol! anyways, you take care :)
lots of love, April
Thanks April, I feel great. And even last night I had apple pie, no guilt! I've never heard of PMDD before but it sounds good that you have determined what it is, now you can adderss it at least. Is borage oil something you ingest? ive never heard of it. I take birth control pills, I'm not sure how much of a difference they make. I am convinced they contribute to weight gain because I wasn't taking them over the fall when I didnt have my period but I started taking them again since mid feb and I have gained 12 lbs (I know I have been eating excessively but I have to wonder if going back on those contributes to it because I had lost a lot of weight when I wasn't on them...)
ReplyDeleteWhen I first started following points it was really hard to bidget in junk food, but I assure it gets easier as you learn which foods are how many points and such.
Thats great you might start a blog! I think if anything it's been good for me to write down my feelings and document my days, even if no one else is reading it, it is therapeutic for me.
Anyway, talk soon!
Yes, borage seed oil comes in capsules from the health food store. Here's what the borage plant looks like:
ReplyDeletehttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borage
it's a really pretty herb. The borage seed oil is the highest source of GLA (gamma-linolenic acid) which is responsible for helping balance the female hormones. I worked in health food stores for years and a lot of menopausal women bought it for helping symptoms of menopause and said it was wonderful for that.
yeah, I've heard of a lot of people saying that they gained weight from birth control pills. I personally don't want to take them because they contain synthetic estrogens (along with progestins) and extra extrogen/estrogen imbalance is what causes PMS problems in the first place, so I cannot help but think that it will only make things worse in the long term since estrogen is a fat-soluble hormone...AND estrogen is a fat-storage hormone, so if you have too much of it, it can cause fat storage. That's why I want to use the progesterone instead; it has the opposite effect of estrogen and (apparently) helps manage PMS because it balances out the estrogen so there is not too much of it.
I really don't think you'd have gained 12 lbs from eating alone. I mean, bingeing obviously does cause weight gain, but it's not like all you did was eat. You worked out, were active, and had lots of healthy days as well. I guess the only way to know for sure is go off them again for awhile and see if you can lose weight.
Yep, I'm learning all about points and am getting good at calculating them! :D
have a good day!
Hey girls. I had a fairly good day today. I ended up eating out b/c I'm travelling for work...in a hotel right now....I had a club on flax bread and some fries....but I DID NOT BINGE....YAYAYAYAY. Normally, that's the kind of meal I would keep eating until the plate was empty. Not this time. I stopped when I was feeling full. Well, I took 3 or 4 extra bites, but none the less, this is BIG for me :)
ReplyDeleteSo, even though today was not perfect, I'm going to call it day 3 with success. YAYAYAYAYAY :)
Sorry for the yelling, I'm just happy :)
April, I'd love to read your blog too :)
Haha, April, you must have been a science student! You seem to know a lot about this stuff! Thats interesting what you say about estrogen being fat-storage hormone, I didn't know that...
ReplyDeleteI think my wieght gain could have been a variety of things, one being binging because I was so out of control for a while, but then I have been having problems with my thyroid as well trying to get it regulated which I believe controls your metabolism? But like you said about me being active, through all this I always manage to run 3 days a week and go to the gym 2-3 days a week, so I consider myself to be very active. I am hoping now that I am heading in a good direction I can get down to what I was by summer (bikini season!)
JJ, congrats on the good day, I am glad to hear you sounding much better. I think listening to your body is huge, which is what you did with your meal. Day 3, thats awesoome! I think as long as YOU are in control, not ED, you can call every day a success :)