Ok, since my last check in a few hours ago I have had a good night, but I feel like I want to eat... but I won't. I don't know why I want to, but I do. But looking back I have had a good day, a good evening with some friends and finished it off with some Thursday night TV. I ate my pizza as planned (tortilla pizza with turkey-pepperoni and LF cheese - not quite what everyone else had but work on one problem at a time). And desert was relatively painless (I got home from school late so all we had was pudding, haha).
All-in-all only overate by 3 WW points, which is fine. I am already mentally preparing for tomorrow's food (and praying there are no surprises at work tomorrow), but know that I have made it through the day successfully having journalled my feelings away and am ending it on a happy note.
How was your day?
xo
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Congrats, you had a good day! great job, you can do it, one day at a time. I know what you mean about wanting to eat and not knowing why, I get that a lot and it's one of the triggers for when I binge. But you made it through the day, that's all that matters :)
ReplyDeleteI'm doing good, day 14 today. I have no idea how that happened, this is honestly the first time in years that I have gone 2 whole weeks without bingeing. Yesterday was a weird day, though, I had one of my Hungry Days (a day where I just feel super ravenously hungry and a major set-up for a binge) and fought it, but I did eat too much at lunch and then felt a bit overfull. However, I'm really glad I did not binge, I stopped myself once I realized that I could be heading for a binge, and I did NOT go out to the store and buy chocolate, which ordinarily, I would have most certainly done once I'd already started eating. Another thing I am proud of is that, later on at supper, I managed to respect my body still being full, and only ate a small supper and thus did not do more damage to myself. So, I think I successfully stopped a binge in its tracks yesterday. I'm pretty sure this (and the fact that I have been doing so well lately) is because I have been making an effort to fight the anorexia during the day and to actually make and eat a healthy breakfast and lunch for myself. I am finding it amazing how much more even my energy level and emotions are when I eat real food. It's not been easy fighting the anorexia voice telling me to not eat, but it seems to be a little bit easier now than it was 2 weeks ago, and I am amazed at how good my body feels physically...I honestly feel like my food tastes amazing and that I have been starving in the desert for years and now suddenly find myself at a delicious, nourishing banquet, that is exactly how I feel these days. The other thing that I find perfectly astounding is that I have lost 3 lbs! by EATING, no less! I'm flabbergasted to see this has happened when I have actually been eating way more than usual. I am planning to keep doing what I am doing and hope that in a few weeks, my metabolism will be boosted up more normally again, and my body will respond to the better nutrition. I'm hoping that by nourishing my body with really healthy food, it will be healthier and won't crave the addictive sugary stuff anymore, and perhaps the binge behaviour will diminish too. I'm even finding I have more energy for my workouts! So, here's to the next 2 weeks! We can do it!
lots of love, April
Hey all. Glad you had a good Thursday *N!!
ReplyDeleteHOpe your Friday was good too!
Thanks so much girls! I hope you both had a good day as well.
ReplyDeleteOne day at a time, one day at a time :) And to take that even further, ~M~ tells me one hour, one moment at a time if a day is feeling overwhelming.
April, it sounds like you are making amazing progress, 14 days is amazing! I'm so proud of you, I know this is a struggle for you. It is amazing how your energy levels increase and you mental well being even improves when you are being good to yourself. And 3lbs, by eating nonetheless! Congratulations, that would be motivation enough for me to keep going another 14 days! But please don't get fixated on the numbers because I know that I can get so focused on losing weight sometimes it can become almost as controlling as binging (easier for me to say though because this is something that I AM vulnerable to as well).
JJ, how did you make out the last 2 days?
xo
Hey. I'm so proud of you two. Good job!!
ReplyDeleteI've been having a rough few days with work and stuff....so, I don't want to be a downer...but, I'm not doing quite as well as you guys.
You are not a downer at all! We are here for each other, I know this is hard for you, it is hard for all of us. Do you want to talk about it? Anything we can do to help, let me know because I know how easy it is to fall off the wagon, so to speak
ReplyDeletexo